Yesterday was probably life changing. It could have been foolish. Its likely stupid.

Yes as of last night, I became the chairman of the hospital radio station with all the liabilities, responseabilities and cheque books that go with it, and I am very very scared.

for the first time I an essentially running a business...

very very scared.

Bored bored bored. 10am and on my way to work. Well I lie.. I am off to the library first to find a Dummies Guide to dreamweaver 4. Its the biggest library in Hampshire.. it must have it..

I had a phone call from one of my bosses yesterday. The matter I have previously talked about is being dealt with, but they want to investigate it fully.. I can seriously see the guy getting sacked.. if he was not who he was!

He has the uncanny ability to get away with murder.. I am not accusing him of murder but I am sure you know what I mean! He is like a minority of the female members of staff we have. They flirt with the management and the second they are being disciplined they "cry rape".

Rant over I will only work myself up.

24 hours later and I still want to knock the little fuck out. Why would one of my own colleagues want to go out of his way to wind a passenger up so much and them disappear leaving the passenger to want to smack me. He was not even meant to be working the train in question but he still went and started shouting insults down the train at this passenger.

He is the most impolite unprofessional piece of crap I have had the mis-pleasure of working with. He thinks he is untouchable, he has got away with so much, he will get a little present from me next time.

Nothing has changed. No big bang, no management cull, no happy punters. Yes I am back at work, "enjoying" my time as a guard, swallowing my pride to tell someone that I was entirely right.. they are not gods and they dont pay my wages..

i will be able to grab a Metro later, so I will be able to discuss the good, the bad and the ugly.. shame the bad is usually the beautiful as well! Shit happens.

Yes I have taken a few days out to sort myself. My posting has become less recently where other priorities have come forward. I am busy working out the way in which I fit everything in this month, while continuing to oblige my darling with copious amounts of the dirty filthy rampant sex that she has come to demand of me. I jest of course, I would do anything to keep her happy for I love her so.

I am out and about today doing mystery shops in Basingstoke. I have got to the point now that I only give benefit of the doubt where instructed. I have turned evil, even pointing out when a member of staff looks so three that they are slurring their speech.. Coral thanked me on that occasion for finding a member off staff drunk on duty!

I have got another interview for a presenter tomorrow. If I accept her, it will make 4 in the wings waiting to be approved by the NHS trust. Thats 4 that I know of anyway, I dread to think how many more are with other committee members.

I have been flicking through the papers and news sites this morning and one interesting story crossed my eyes suggesting that some Womens prisons such as Holloway should be closed and converted to a mans prison. They believe that women would benefit from smaller "community" units. Surely that would be classed as sexual discrimination? The simple answer would be to make all the perverts, murderers and the like live in poverty, in 8 foot by 4 foot cells on bread and water. They deserve no better in most cases and in many instances are BETTER OFF in prison! The punishment should fit the crime, not the criminal should get a TV, PLAYSTATION, etc.

One thing I did get a chance to do this week was catch up on the first episode of Billie Piper's new sold in The Secret Diary of a Call Girl (still available on itv.com ). She really does look like she enjoys the series, especially AWAY from the sex scenes, with the beauty of make up making her dazzle. I will certainly be making sure I can watch THAT this week.

Well its taken me the best part of an hour to write all that from my mobile phone. So I will give your eyes a rest and catch you later on. TTFN.

... and I need a week off to recover from my week off.

Today, I have been to the studio, mystery shopped for banks and debated what to do for dinner. I have farted darted and carted and its only 6pm.

On the plus side, I have been able to find another potential committee member for the station, yet I wonder if she will try to undo all our work.. we will see.

TTFN

Three days into my weeks leave, I am on a train taking a trip across the desolate urban landscape that is Southampton.. home of the best stadium in the championship..

I have just spent an hour or so in Portsmouth shopping and before that two hours interviewing for new presenters at radio. Tomorrow I am taking my brother to the hospital to get his foot checked out.. he was stupid enough to want to put it in front of a car to see how it would feel.. the answer? Bloody Painful!

I am off to mystery shop Thursday for a mainstream bookmakers in four hours I will have sampled the delights of three of them, making sure they comply with various regulations.. saying that even if I am not I will sometimes make it sound like I am, a great way of getting something for as little as possible.

I am very quickly getting geared up for the Hospital Broadcasting Association conference. Its less than a month away so I have to make sure all my better clobber is up to scratch and my suit pressed and dry cleaned. I will be using a seperate blog on another site to keep people up to date. Details when I have set it up!

well the vibration of my phone must mean that some one wants my attention.. TTFN

Whoever thought of women wearing strappy, very loose tops? That has been my only highlight so far today. Two very lovely lasses wearing very little. Who ever decreed that women should year very little was a genius! Its a shame there two them proceeded to snog each other to pieces.. in the middle of the train.. one for the memory I think.

i finally completed my Genesis back catalogue this week. I have no idea why I wanted it, I just accumulated it. A most excellent collection of proper music I decree.

and finally.. Generic.. Err.. It just sounded good.

The police this week have come to an all time low.. a bus driver turns up at a police station with a group of junkies openly smoking crack on the bus and the police are "not available". Now you can not tell me that there were no officers at Lewisham station who could give just 5 minutes of their time to "protect and serve" as I thought was the core ethos behind policing.

In slightly more depressing news, Britney Spears has released a new track and in my opinion one of her worst yet.. I will wait for a hake decent remix that doesnt make her sound like she is struggling all the way through.

Well not enough time for me to say much today. I hope her indoors has me dinner ready tonight.

I hearby decree that my manager has finally lost it. She is willing to play Russian Roulette with our lives to make sure she gets her bonus.

As of today, if we as guards work a train that is booked to terminate early due to engineering works, we have to get on a bus the same as a passenger. Now some of you may be thinking that we are mad, not above rail passengers,etc, but when you consider that we are often carrying about £500 on us, we have just been through said train selling tickets and chances are some of those are pissed at having to buy a ticket, you can probably understand that some of up are a little concerned for our safety.

My company have never run a risk assessment of getting on a bus at 1am with a load of pissed up scroats looking to battle all-comers. They havent because they would have to do it every weekend when a different bus service runs. As it is, the CCTV on our lovely Disastro trains rarely operates now so when there is even a fight on the train, the police have very little in the way of evidence.

Now I have no problem getting on a replacement bus service during the daytime, or when most of the calling points are staffed, but at 2am meandering down country lanes, is it REALLY a risk the company are happy taking? Even bus companies refuse to drive in some areas that we go through to get to stations on those late night runs.

This is a time when I will fully support Bob Crow if he were to call a strike over our safety. I disagreed with the call for 72 hours on the tube as it was an issue that would have been better resolved with other tactics, but I think that if we were to refuse to start any diagram with a bus involved then we would get somewhere and still pass on a service to our passengers.. well, the ones that dont try to beat us to a pulp.