What a lousy day it has been today for me... and to top it all off I am more than likely about to get my ass kicked all around the managers office for being a "racist".

Doing two ound trips from Portsmouth to London on a train is bad enough. The job was nearly 10 hours today although all the work was express trains and none of these stopping services. So anyway onto the topic of the rant.

"... white fat f***ing racist..."

Coming back from London on my last working of the day, I am checking tickets as any good conductor should. Now people who have a railcard are meant to buy their tickets at a ticket office before joining the train, so I was enforcing this, and declining any requests for the discount unless they apporached me with a reasonable excuse.

One gentlemen wanted to demand his (now uneligable) discount. Now I have many friends from a range of ethnic backgrounds, but this coloured gentleman started to try and argue that I was only refusing him the discount because he was black and that I was being racist.... well what he actually said was that I was a "white fat f***ing racist". Fine by me... he alighted at the next station, got agressive and put a complaint in! He still was not getting back on MY train.

You can see which side the managers will fall on.... the customer.

SWT Waterloo train drivers to strike.

So anyway my other topic of conversation affects our suburban commuters. The train drivers at Waterloo have long had a local agreement (they are the only depot to have one) that for their really early and really late shifts they get subsidised taxis from their home to Waterloo station. Some started taking the mickey and were soon to be getting taxis from as far away as Coventry, Peterborough and even Bournemouth (10 minutes away from the local Bournemouth drivers depot!). So the company decides that it is going to remove this facility for the 40 or so drivers that still use the service (new drivers are not offered this facility), and 200 are now going to strike this Tuesday and Thursday.

Mainline services are unlikely to be affected as other depots will have sufficient staff to covers trains onf the Portsmouth, Southampton, Weymouth and Salisbury lines, but disruption is expected on SWT suburban services.

Stabing on Virgin XC train

Most of you in the UK will probably by now have heard about the gentleman stabbed to death on a Vrgin Cross-Country train in West Lancashire yesterday. This surely re-opens a debate of safety of the staff and passengers on the railway.... bring in scanners at major stations, have undercover police on trains, train the staff in self-defence and weaponless combat (or guns, whichever you prefer)

I think its mad that people feel the need to carry knives around with them, and hope this guy is locked up for a very long time... I bet the Virgin Train Manager (guard/conductor) was filling his kecks at the though of what would happen if HE was asked for a ticket!

Well rant over... I am off to prepare a report for this complaint going against me.

WoW! I never though I would enjoy meself so much as I did last night at a G4 concert! Now I will listen to anything music-wise, but I went with a slightly closed mind to hearing a classical re-hash of some popular covers. I came out eyes wide and looking for the albums!

First up was an excellent offering from relativly new trio Triniti ( website ). Sharon, Eve and Laura looked a bit overwhelmed, possibly scared at the the number of fans who were already sat waiting to hear them perform, and I might even go as far to say that if I went into the Brighton Centre not knowing anything, could easily compare them to three girls from a school choir nervously playing forthe first time.

Then they open their mouths... a beautiful Irish accent, and one that could melt even the hardest of rockers. I was slightly concerned that one of the three (it was either Laura or Sharon, which ever it was was wearing the red dress last night) sounded very slightly off key, although I am no music master, and have little musical talant... I prefer being a radio DJ. If it was, I would put my money on it being due to a faulty earpiece (?) because by the time we hit their a cappella offering the harmony was perfect and the voices complemented each other so well!

This is one album I will be getting without listening to any samples on the internet...

After the break came the main act. Jon, Ben, Mike and Matt have certainly done well out of the X-Factor, and their talant justifys their position in the music world. New arrangements of old favourites were very well received, the power of Barcelona and the audience sing-a-long that was La Donna E Mobile made my night, although for me the most powerful and poiniant of the lot was the cover of Bohemian Rhapsody, which I will remember for a long time.

Partly away from the music, the quartet made their way into the crowd towards the end of the concert... which was once the security team had to remove a couple and a weapon (looked like a smash up chair to me), although unfortunatly the security teams had their work cut out keeping the enthusiastic female (and some male) fans from throwing themselves at them!

Away from the music itself, Mike did not seem to be completly with it tonight. At times I thought he came across as distracted, until he came into his own with solo offerings. Jon and Ben were more settled, enjoying the evening and doing something they so obviously love. Matt was the star of the night for me however, and throughout the show I could not help comparing him to the film The Full Monty, where he reminded me of Dave, played by Mark Addy. He was getting into the show and his solo highlight singing Tom Jones classic "It ain't unusual" was certainly different.

All in all, if you can get tickets GO GO GO!

The weeks go by and I seem to write less and less. I don't whether its the fact I have little to say, or whether I can not be bothered to say it.

A lot has happened really, and its hard where to being...

I have spent a lot of the last week trying to work out where I stand with my partner. As it is I only see her twice a month, if I am lucky, and with no apparent will for her to move into our newly bought house, I wonder if even this extravagent purchase we have made is not stopping us from drifting apart. I am talking to her less and less on the phone, when she does come to the flat for the weekend, she is sually watching telly while I am gaming on the computer, and when I am not with her I rarely think of her now.

I have also spent a few days expanding my working knowledge of trains by being able to run class 442's now. Three days with the madest of mad trainers was fun, and I enjoyed the delights of Weymouth on a wet spring day. I also enjoyed not having to chat with any passengers or sell tickets!

I managed to get myself sacked from my online DJing career. I was working on alpha-radio for about a month, and putting in around 20 hours a week, until I was told I was contrbuting too much. My responce of "FOR F**K SAKE Make your ruddy minds up and then let us know" was met with a goodbye.

I am also off to see G4 tonight. One of my closet friends has this thing for them, but decided to leave her boyfriend before they went to see it. So I managed to get a free ticket to G4, and spend the night with her in a hotel (twin beds, not double). I should get back around 3pm tomorrow, because my other half will be coming down for our fortnightly 24hour time together....

My head is spinning so bad, I don't know what to think sometimes.....

A lot to say and not long to say it.

As many of you may have noticed, a new ticker has appeared, and its one I should explain, as some of you have noticed from "private" comments and it would only be time.

Back in September, I had the misfortune of having to deal with the body of a woman who had been involved in a horrific suicide bid, she lived a further 7 hours and died in hospital. I hid it from my friends, I hid it from my family, I hid it from myself. I faultered and hit the bottle and got caught just under 50% over the drink drive limit.

My own fault and I should have known better.... I admitted my guilt in court and received a 12 month ban reduced to 9 with a drink-management course.

What I have surprised myself by doing, is being able to come two-thirds of the way though my ban without getting behind the wheel of a car. I thought I would be an ignorant b*d and get behind the wheel and drive, but I haven't. I did a drink course with 11 other people. I KNOW that at least 4 of them still drive, as I have seen them.

So anyway, thats my cryptic ticker..... My own personal goal to abide by the law from now until the day I die. I know what I have already done is bad enough and I will spend the rest of my days regreting it, but its time to turn a new leaf.

My query is what do our ethnic minorities do to get us in trouble. I was on a bus with around 6 or 7 asian students. They were taking the mickey out of "their culture" and being abusinve about "asian shops" that sold "babies 3 for £1". This joking of their "paki forefathers" (their quote) went on for about 10 minutes with comments like "we are ethnic, worship us" and a black gentleman who was sitting two seats in front of them smiled.... big mistake

All of a sudden they were calling him a "coon" and that he was a "racist f*$k" who should be sent back to the country he came from. Like HELLO! this guy appologised, in better English than I can speak and got off the bus at the next stop. His departure was met by MONKEY NOISES, and shouts of "nigger b*$*h"

I'm sorry, but I knew white men were actively racist against ethnic minorities, but this is behaviour from a culture which we WELCOMED into our country many years ago, and now they are starting to get as bad as the militant members of the BNP!

If this is the way that minorities treat us, shall I become a militant member of the BNP? or shall I just become a "paki forefather" selling "babies, 3 for £1"!

I love sundays, especially if they are in the middle of my two weeks holiday!

Me and the misses went to Goodwood yesterday, and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. Its rare I get to enjoy myself when gambling, but this is one of those days where it really was different. I really had a good time. Maybe it was the fact that I got to spend awhole day with my partner, rather than the disjointed case of "Ill be at the house early afternoon", followed by a lazy afternoon of "rumpy pumpy" and an early night.

We stayed up to watch Most Haunted Live! on Living TV. Enjoyed seeing someone being buried in a coffin in the middle of the night at the scarey Southsea Castle. If anyone knows what the object they took in with them really was, please let me know. I reckon it was eithe a cannonball or pistol/musket/yesteryear weapon type thing.

Well thats all I got time for now. We are going to get dressed and randomly head out!

I would like to point out that I am A-R|TP:

Alpha-Radio A-R|Donna is now ONAIR!
[22:00] Alpha-Networks tune in to #alpha-radio - http://hi-stream.alpha-radio.co.uk:8000/listen.pls - DJ : A-R|Donna is NOW ON AIR!
[22:01] A-R|Donna tune in to #alpha-radio - http://hi-stream.alpha-radio.co.uk:8000/listen.pls - DJ : A-R|Donna is NOW ON AIR (sorry amsg)
[22:18] A-R|Donna any 1 know why sam is looping back the song 2 me via headset
[22:19] A-R|Donna i like am hearing the song 2 times :/
[22:19] A-R|TP DONNA: Do you have winamp on too?
[22:20] A-R|Donna no coz that would be a real blonde thing 2 do
[22:20] A-R|Jon lol
[22:20] A-R|Donna and i'm blonde just not that blonde
[22:21] juliet hahah
[22:21] juliet owned
[22:21] juliet took long enough ffs
[22:21] A-R|TP I only get my voice feding back on a delay on SAM
[22:21] A-R|Donna and yes it was coz of winamp
[22:21] A-R|TP ROFL
[22:21] A-R|TP pwned!

Humiliation ends!

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