I buggered it up well and truly tonight.

I really cock things up at work at a time when the safety of our passengers is THE thing. Actually technically I only put myself at risk of injury, but it is still a "wrong-side error" as in the wrong side of good.....

I spent two hours waiting for the medscreen kits to get to me, so i could blow a breath test (a ZERO reading for Alcohol, but I knew that already) and a piss test. Now I got to wait for up to 10 days to see if they find anything in that, and I have an official interview with the hob-nobs and the like.

So I have had my licence to work trains revoked on a temporary basis. I can not go out and work trains, I can not do anything related to trains, all I can do is sit in the depot and potter about finding something to do.

The most severe punishment I can get is being Fired, although given my good record I should get away with a severe reprimand. Had someone have got hurt as a result of my momentary oversight I could have got a pair of cuffs over my wrists, thankfully though, it was impossible to do that.

So now I sit.... and wait....